Howdy

Howdy,

Been a while since I have posted on here, I want to start writing in here more. Nobody sees this anyways. I have been away for a bit. In the past 3 years I have built a lab, worked at a biotech start-up in LA, put on a music festival, moved to Portland Oregon and back, now I am living with some friends in Burlington Vermont.

It's been a strange couple of years, I have definitely changed since I last posted on here. I am much more stupid, but I am also not so schizo-affected, which is good. I am still constantly learning and playing and experiencing but my mind is fuzzy these days. I hate it, I think it has to do with drinking. I hate drinking. I just turned 21, alcohol is no longer fun. Wait I want that to be a haiku. Just turned 21, alcohol isn't fun now, when was it ever? I just want to be sober. I hate it. I live with people who drink and I can't escape it. I quit for a while and then get dragged back in. I hate it. Alcohol is the worst drug I know, it's not outwardly horrible, but it isn't outwardly or inwardly good either, it sucks, and will ruin your life so why bother. I hate it. It really sucks, I hate it. I don't have fun on it anymore, I don't feel it's effects in any enjoyable capacity. I just wake up after drinking feeling reduced. Reduced to some meat sack who is dumb enough to think he is sad. I hate it, god I hate it.

Well that's what was on my mind today, might post again if I feel less reduced, held back, put out, or mentally inept. I have been in a good place productivity wise and doing a lot of enjoyable things, feeling motivated to become less shit-brained and be the person I know myself to be. I am excited to talk about the good stuff. But just wanted to let you all know that I am back and alcohol is never worth it! Sober up!